Saturday, November 30

RIP paul walker

heyyy guys!

after been locked out of the house last night (which i will later tell you about it)... i had slept peacefully dreaming beautifully when a phone call woke me up. it was my friend, was inviting me to go to the national park this 14th and blablabla. i said no and i hung up and i straight away do my daily routine of checking my whatsapp, my insta, my facebook and when i open my twitter i had the shock of my life! i found out that my dear beloved Paul Walker had died from a car crash. okayy i waannnnnaaaaaaa crrrrrrrryyyyyyyyyyyyy TT__TT

he is such a beautiful man (even in his forties!) and a very talented actor not to mention his cute smile, well more like a grin actually. its ironic though how he died in a car crash accident because he began his fame with a racing series: FAST AND FURIOUS TRILOGY. in the movies he got injured lots of times but always got saved in the nick of time and what is the most legen-wait for it-dary is that his car crash was a tragic incident. from what was reported in the news, Paul Walker was at the passenger seat and his friend was driving as they were going back to their homes from a charity event. his friend lost control of the car and it hit a tree or a post (i kinda forgot!) and the car burst into flames. JUST LIKE IN THE MOVIE!

at first, i still couldnt accept his death but whatever that lives one day must eventually die. so i manage to cope my feelings (HARDCORE FAN MUCH!) i have no idea how does the director of f&f is gonna twist the plot but i know it will NEVER EVER be the same again without Paul Walker. he's a legen-wait for it-dary actor and without him, fast&furious will never be the same fast&furious again. i will miss you Paul Walker. we all will. all your fans and people of the world.



Friday, November 29

immature much?

yellow watermelon saying hello!

so today's entry would be my comment regarding thiiiissss >>>>>>>

well i think all the malaysians know about them right? this news is a hot seller right now as nobody knows the real ugly truth about why they got married in the first place and why they got divorced a week before their 1st anniversary. 

i'm not writing this to speculate anything and spread rumours (which are definitely not true) to my readers. but the statement that the guy made towards his ex-wife is TOTALLY RIDICULOUS! omg. first thing first, this news is a hot-seller due to several reasons. and here's why: 

1. the girl's father stated that he allowed her daughter to marry the guy because the guy raped her before with his 2 other friends. he reported the crime but the guy's father pleaded him to cancel the report and just let them marry.

2. the girl's father allowed his daughter to get a divorce because her parents-in-law treated her like shit and never even give her food to eat (i think this is kindaaaa weird) that her father has to travel like half-an-hour just to send her food.

3. the guy denied he had raped her before they got married. he said they started sleeping together once they got married. 

4. the guy stated that his ex-wife cheated on him with some guy and her terrible attitude made him to divorce the wife.

okayyyy... so basically there are many i repeat MANY twist and turn towards this story and i dont even wanna know which one is the truth. but the statement that the guy made about his wife is totally uurrgghhhhh *bangsheadonthewalluntilmyskullcracks* is just totally BUNKOUS! UNACCEPTABLE! 

these are his reasons of why he divorce the wife: 

1. the wife is rude towards the parents and him: includes on how she's rebellious and doesnt wanna hear their advice 

2. the wife doesnt cook at all

3. the wife will run out of the house if she's not satisfied with anything 

hurmmmm... what is he trying to explain is how childish the wife is. oh yes i forget to tell ya guys... the girl is a freaking 13 year old kid. i repeat she's 13!!!!!!! she was 12 when she got married. FREAKING TWELVE!!! 

what do you expect from a 12 year old girl man? seriously? those 3 reasons you're giving out to the public of whyyyyy you divorce her suits her. SHE'S JUST A SMALL CHILD! she's immature and all she needs is attention, care and love. i am so confused right now that i feel like i wanna bang my head all day to the wall. 

*preparing a light saber to stab self* 

why are people nowadays soooooooo dumb? that kid is just 13 right now. whyyyyy did you do that to her? i pity the girl actually. as a girl, i feel her confusion about what is happening to her. when i was 13 all i understand is that i have to go to school, get good grades and have fun with my friends play sports or anything. but this girl when she's 13 she has to think about her husband, about how to keep her husband satisfied, about her marriage and shit. seriously, i dont think this girl even understand what is marriage! that is why she keeps on running away. why cant anybody get it? 

she's still very confused! she needs her parents. she needs someone to just give her attention, care, love and guidance. SHE IS JUST A SMALL KID I REPEAT!!! this world is just too cruel to have done that to her. im not just blaming the husband and the in-laws. im blaming the parents too for not thinking about their daughter's future. i understand the father is just trying to protect her daughter, preventing something more horrible from happening but then... now his daughter is a 13 year-old widow. i feel so sad for her. 

i'm 19 and even i dont wanna get married now. because i dont wanna understand what is commitment. im not ready. i know im not ready. so why did you ever thought your 12 year-old daughter (back then when she's about to get married) is ready for commitment? ready to take a huge responsibility on her shoulder? ready to have a family? aiyaaa. I JUST CANNOT DIGEST THIIISSS!!!!!

well i hope we all could learn something from this. and i hope nobody will ever do like this again. EVER. please? 


Wednesday, November 27

bitch's problem

hello yello holla yolla

another day another post very not related to any of my previous post. just a normal daily lessons for anyone who's even reading this. there are many types of people in this world: some are good, some are bad, some are hypocrites, some are just plain normal, some are pious, some are bloody dangerous and some are many things. but in life lessons we do learn about karma aite? what goes around, comes around.

1. you do bad things to people, people will do bad things to you and,
2. you do good things to people, people will do good things to you


life aint that easy though. sometimes those who always do bad things dont even get any payback while those who always do good things, they get shit from people around them. life aint fair sometimes. but believe that one day, karma will hit them. no matter how bad or how good. it will hit them. somehow. one day.

i was told that people around me feel very embarrass and humiliated if they hang out with me because im ugly. really? bitch please. if i AM ugly, whats that got anything to do with you? i dont hang out with you. im not one of your friends (hell no you're one of my friends!). i NEVER talk to you. then... why do you still have to bitch about me to anyone?


are you that childish and immature to spread such a statement to everyone? no wonder you dont have that many friends. so sad boohoo :( my advice? why dont you learn not to care about people and start to re-check yourself in the mirror instead? nobody's perfect. only God is perfect. hell no you aint perfect too. i'm just confused why do you even spread rumours about me when you dont even know who i am? we never talked before. i dont even know who you are! LOL its funny for me to see you this pathetic. do you really want the limelight and attention? please do so. im not interested at all. you wanna be popular and beautiful and soooooo 'cool'? then go ahead. please do so. i'll spread the red carpet for you. just dont bitch about anyone that you dont even freaking now to anybody. ayy?

p.s please do accept my advice if you really want everybody to like you because right now, everybody doesnt.


Wednesday, November 20


yo hallu hello holla

i do believe in fate. i believe that God has arrange our fate. and the only thing we have to do is hope for the best. and accept whatever that has been arranged for us.

i believe that my future special somebody is out there. he's just with all the wrong girls. and i'm with all the wrong boys.



hello holla halluu

what is love?

love has a wide meaning. basically nobody can ever define love. love can be for anything, anyone. how do you actually prove that you are in love with somebody? prolly during the first few time period of your relationship you might say that you will love that special somebody forever. but it is true when people say love can die.

i do love things, people. i love my parents a lot. like damn a lot. and i know that i love them. but you can never understand your own feelings if you really love that special someone. apart from your parents. at first you might think that oh yes, i care about that somebody. and i do love that somebody. but actually you dont. really.

i can spread love. accept love. but i love me more. i can love but i will not forever change myself about anybody. ever. period. i love my parents so much only God knows how much, but they never force me to change my own self. and i will never change for them (hehehe sorry maa :p) so dont ever cross your mind that i will change for anybody else. if you really love me you will accept me for who i am, my future hubby (if i do have one LOL!)

p.s dear whomever the romeos out there, if you cant accept a girl for who she is, leave her. dont ever keep a tear of hope that she will change one day. coz if she never changes, will you ever sincerely love her?


Sunday, November 10

morning scribble i

friends are important. you see, if you dont have any friends....

whom will you seek for advice? (most of you would say family okay i get it but sometimes you need a FRIENDLY advice and yes your family might cannot provide that imma right or imma right?)

whom will you seek for help in your modules? asking for schedules? and the location of classes of course?

whom will wanna be in your group if you have a group project or presentation?

whom will you wanna hang out together just chillin out and have fun?

whom will you ask for a hug even just for a while if you're feeling weak at a certain time?

whom will you find for help in you are in need?

it's your FRIENDS of course duhh obviouslyy~ you're living quite far from your families. if there's is any emergency or any troubles with your courses.... its friends who you will seek for. no matter how much you hate them. sometimes the furthest friend is actually the person you can most rely on. and your bestest friend is actualy just a piece of crap and a big fat irresponsible liar. okay nytenyte everyone!




living independently far away from your parents is hard. i know. ive been there. and still is lol. ive been living on my own since i was 13. it was hard at first. got a lot of depression shit going on. but i survived. everything comes to one: Allah is always there. no matter how much you forget about Him. neglecting your prayers. practicing the bad habit. but whenever we wanna repent and wanna follow back his ways... He always welcome His followers with open hand.

dont ever let Allah forgets about you even a sec. Coz that is the time when all your good deeds and your repent is at no use anymore.

hello dear friend, i really do care about you. i love you as a friend. but somehow your irresponsibility makes me so mad at you that somehow i got fed up already. so here it is, i will not care anymore. do whatever you want. i dont care. as long as you dont fuck up my life. you can fuck up yours. its your choice. not mine. but make sure you make the right choice. and make sure that you dont mess with my life anymore. once you fuck up my life again. its the end of us.

can you please learn to be a little more responsible of yourself? at least that will make other people feel at ease a bit. its hard to live far from your parents i get that. but you have to learn though. im not your freaking guardian or some shit. i am JUST your housemate for God sake. so please, please stop fucking up my life.

Thanks a lot dear friend. i hope you succeed in life.

Friday, November 8

loosing everything

what will you do...

if you lose your friends

if you lose your confidence

if you lose your strength

if you lose your inner peace

if you lose your joy

if you lose your smile

if you lose your laughter

if you lose everything that once made you happy

what will you do?

you see... it is true what people say. life is like a roller coster. sometimes you're so damn high up in the sky. but at one point, you'll be on your lowest and weakest point ever. at that point you have to decide whether to be strong and move on or you break yourself up.

what will i do?

you cant compare to me. i'm very vulnerable. i'm very insecure. i can be damn hard at times but i'm very very fragile. i can break easily. and its hard to put back the pieces together. alone. but i'm a fighter. i'll fight. to be happy. i'll fight to not show people that i'm weak. i'll fight to be the strongest. most powerful. but that is what i always hope i can do.

what will i actually do then?